Jonathan Newell

music, words and pictures

ALWAYS HAVE YOU

in all the darkness around me, some kind of light shines through. At the end of the day some people might say the best part about me is you. With all the trouble that surrounds me no matter what I do when there's no meaning it's just another dark evening I remember you. It's four in the morning. I'm all alone and I get this feeling on my way home that it's all for nothing and it breaks my heart. With you walking here beside me there's nothing we can't do. It's been a long hard day and I'll always have you. In all the darkness around me some kind of light shines through. It shows me the way to the end of the day. It begins and ends with you. With all the trouble that surrounds me I don't know what I'd do. The light at the end of that long dark tunnel looks a lot like you. It's four in the morning. I'm all alone and I get this feeling on my way home that it's all for nothing and it breaks my heart. With you walking here beside me there's nothing we can't do. It's been a long hard road but I'll always have you. Don't keep me guessing baby, because the wind is blowing and the rain's coming down. I learned my lesson baby. Will you come back now?

WAITING SOMEWHERE

Warm summer night cold winter day. One word too many and I turned and walked away. Two days go by. Cool heads prevail. Now I wrote this letter that I wonder should I mail. I found a place to go where no one knows my name. Come to find out it's the same trouble different day. Cold summer night, warm winter day. Come to find out there's no peace in the light of day. It's waiting somewhere, can you feel it somewhere? Somewhere the hills are colored gold. It's waiting somewhere. Let's find it. We'll hit the road tonight. Baby, everything's all right.

OVER YOU

I woke up this morning on the wrong side of town. Warmed up yesterday's coffee. Tried to choke it down. I dialed your number. You let it ring through. Can I come over? I'm trying to get over you. Punched my card in the time clock. Set my lunch pail down. I dialed your number. Guess you're not around. Last night was a nightmare. Today it came true. Can I come over I'm trying to get over you. What will it take until my lonely heart won't break? How can I pay for my latest mistake? Stopped off at the local. Numbed myself to the bone. Bought a lottery ticket. Cried all the way home. I dialed your number. Don't know what else to do. Can I come over? I'm trying to get over you. What it will take to leave your ghost behind? What will it take to ease my mind? How many minutes until this day is through? Another day older I'm trying to get over you. I got home this evening and I lay myself down. I dialed your number. Calling from the dark side of town. This living ain't easy. I've got nothing to lose. Can I come over? I'm trying to get over you.

RAIN AT CHRISTMAS

Count the days gone by I can't get no peace. Trouble always followed me like it was on a leash. Long way to go, nothing to say and I don't want to talk about it. Emptiness inside of you it didn't leave me room. Dim like distant stars, constant as the moon. Long way to go, nothing to say and I don't want to talk about it. Loving you is like waking up on Christmas Day. Can't you see the shame? Sticks to me like blame. I'm still sailing on this ship of fools. Shadow on my eyes comes as no surprise. You know I miss you. It feels like rain at Christmas. Pictures of misery tattooed around my heart. the words flew 'round the room tearing us apart. Long way to go, nothing to say and you don't want to talk about it. Loving you is like waking up on Christmnas Day. What else can I say?

DOWN THE LINE

You thought you'd love and leave them lonely. That seemed to work out every time. Nothing has changed. Somehow your looks remain. But something's missing, baby. Who you been kissing, baby? They all knew you would pay the price too. Don't keep your love up on the shelf, all to yourself. Nobody told you you'd pay down the line. They bought and sold you and now you're down to your last dime. They'll take it from you saying uncle you every last time. Nobody told you you'd pay down the line. They bought and sold you and now you're paying for it. You know that go wherever looks can take you. You swear you don't know who or what the hell that makes you. They never told you and now you're losing your mind. Nobody showed you at the end of the rainbow what you're bound to find. Be careful who you use you're gonna pay your dues. It's gonna get you on down the line. There's a price to pay for getting things your way. It's going to get you on down the line. God gave me everything I want. I'll give it all to you. I know you're thinking there ain't a single thing that you won't do. It's shocking what your looks have done for you.

PULL ME UNDER

You're a violent lover. You hurt me, so what's your hurry? Don't be silent lover. Desert me, don't make me worry. So many lovers you sell your soul to take control. The pushers and the shovers, you make your bed and then you say please help me. It took me over, it pulled me under. It took me over, it pulled me under. Don't say its over. You pulled me under. Realize it lover, believe me you're never in it. Underneath the covers, deceive me. tell me I'll win it. So many lovers. They steal your soul to take control, but still the darkness hovers. You make your bed andthen you say please help me. It took me over, it pulled me under. It took me over, don't say its over you pulled me under. Don't deny it lover. You're making plans, just make it snappy. Could you try it lover? You make your bed and then you say please help me. It took me over, it pulled me under. It took me over, you pulled me under.

SEVEN MIRRORS

Seven mirrors tell me ive got a lot to learn. Smoke and ash and broken glass everywhere I turn. Seven mirrors tell me I must be out of luck she aint no lady and she never did like me all that much. I was thinking about it yesterday, how people run you through. But you live with it every day. Better put it all behind me now. Seven mirrors tell the truth. Seven mirrors tell me bad luck was made to last. When did the rosy future become the bitter past? Seven mirrors tell me I must be out of time but here I am still sanding in the sumer of 49. I was thinking about it yesterday, how people run you through. But you live with it everyday. Better put it all behind me now. Seven mirrors tell the truth. Someday I'm gonna rise up and see I'm better than I ever thought I'd be. One of these days on me don't give up. I know there's something better. There's just got to be. I was thinking about it yesterday, how people run you through. But you live with it every day. Better put it all behind me now. Seven mirrors tell the truth.

GOD MADE DIFFERENT

Mama said I was a boy that God made different. I was standing in the backyard wondering what she meant. They don't know what to say so they turn their back on you. Thank God that I'm not different. Thank God I'm not like you. Better dead than be the boy that God made different. That's what my daddy said and now I'm wondering where the time went. I made my way alone. I'm doing what I do. I thank God He made me different. I thank God I'm not like you. I promise me tonight as I lay my head to sleep that everyone I talk to, everybody that I meet, when someone self-destructs don't take a front row seat. When tomorrow comes I'll take a look around. And I'll look him in the eye, maybe offer him my hand. It's like looking in a mirror when you try to understand. You've got to stand up every time, you know you've got to do whats right. Try walking in the shoes of a man that God made different. You know they don't even see me I'm invisible on the street. I've got some shoes to fill and I've got blisters on my feet. I know just what to say and I know just what to do to make you think I'm someone not so different than you. I made my way alone on the path less taken. You know there ain't no sleeping in this bed that I've been making. Some people think I chose it but they're too blind to see. No one would ever choose this life, it just chose me. So look me in the eye, maybe offer me your hand. It's like looking in the mirror when you try to understand. You've got to stand up every time, you know you've got to do what's right. You're looking in the eyes of a man that God made different. So mama's little baby has all his fingers and his toes. He's daddy's little soldier in his working man's clothes. And you taught him what to say and you taught him what to do, but he might grow into someone who is different from you. So promise me tonight as you lay your head to sleep you'll be somebody to turn to for the stranger on the street. When somebody self- destructs don't take a front row seat. When tomorrow comes you'll take a look around. And you'll look him in the eye, maybe offer him your hand. It's like holding up a mirror if that makes you understand. You've got to stand up every time you know you've got to do what's right. The soul is the measure of the man that God made different. I'm just daddy's little soldier boy and I'm trying to understand. You know the eyes are the window to the soul of the man that God made different.

JUST PASSIN' THROUGH

The sun is coming up. I got coffee in my cup. Another day I got some driving to do. Outside the weather's fine. I'm riding that yellow line. Look out now I'm just passin' through. I'll have another cup of coffee and drive another hundred miles. I'm looking left, I'm looking right. I run all the traffic lights. Look out baby I'm just passin' through. My tires are feeling great. I'm counting license plates. The sun above me the sky is blue. Until the day is done I'm headed west I'm having fun. Look out baby I'm just passin' through. I'll have another cup of coffee and drive another hundred miles. Lights go from green to red I'm hearing voices in my head. Lookout baby I'm just passin' through. I'll have another cup of coffee maybe another slice of pie, then baby its goodbye. The traffic's getting tight. Baby I'll be home tonight if it's the last thing that I do. Lights go from red to green I got cigarettes and gasoline. Lookout baby I'm just passin' through. I'll have another cup of coffee and drive another hundred miles. LA or Katmandu, any place we travel to. Look out baby I'm just passin' through. I'm looking left, I'm looking right. I'm passing everything in sight. Lookout baby I'm just passin' through. Move it on over, I'm just passin' through.

BACK TO ME

Do you know my name? It's still the same now. It all went up in flames. It's all a game now. Nothing but time. Your past behind now. One day at a time. It's such a grind now. You gave me something I can call my own. I feel the same. Should I be ashamed now? I'm still in chains. I feel no pain now. You gave me something I can call my own. Now when I call you, you hang up the phone. Well I know I made a mess and now you know the rest and now you come back to me. 'Cuz tou know I made you smile and yeah its been a while now you come back to me. You know I did my best, can't beat the stress, meet with success, but I digress. I learned my lesson now more or less and now you come back to me. You've had your fun, a walk in the sun now. Not to be outdone, you've got me on the run now. You gave me something I can call my own. Now when I call you, you hang up the phone. Well I know I made a mess and now you know the rest and now you come back to me. 'Cuz you know I made you smile and yeah, it's been a while and now you come back to me. You know I did my best, cant beat the stress, meet with success, just dumb I guess. I learned my lesson now more or less and now you come back to me.